invisibilty.

Bee: Sometimes I think I'm invisible to people lol

Bee: Like I'm visible to people who don't matter

Bee: But invisible to those that do

Bee: Oooor visible for the wrong reasons

Bee: And I'm like really tired of it

Sam: u know, i feel that same way sometimes

. . . these niggas today.

so, i know i aint like the most perfect person on the earth

. . . nor the prettiest.

. . . or the coolest.

i dont have the "likeability thing" like sam.

but i still like to think im alright.

actually noooo . . . im more then alright.

I'm tired of being looked over like im chopped liver. like im not "worthy enough" not "fly enough" or other misc. crap like that. When i sit here and bust my behind to be a great person, great friend. sit here and give ADVICE to you about other females EVEN THOUGH i like you.

put myself aside.

yet im still invisible.

it baffles me how you can sit there and waste ya time with some . . . DUMB chick. I must need to put a big sign on my forehead that says im dumb and easy for you to look at me.

not that that makes a damn difference b/c you know what, ya probably gunna get bored in a month anyway.

smh. so when are you going to grow the F up and realize that your a idiot and you've been lookin over

ME.

i dont like to toot my damn horn.

BUT . . .

TOOT M-F'N TOOT NEGRO.

you missin out on a great deal more than you think. this goes faaaar beyond prom.

smh.

bum'ology.

eeeh.

soo im in free, in the ever popular music room. with THEEE COOLEST music teacher in the entire free world today.


(mr. siemers)


. . . he says hello btw.

i've decided that 6th period on C Day, i am studying BUM'OLOGY.(siemers said make it brown like doodoo)

i just sit . . .

. . . and sit.

and dooo NOTHING. yet its fun. =]

hehe. i kinda love my life.

. . . oh urrm.

. . . im bianca btw.

hello.

=]

. . . this is a friggen outrage!

"Collective fear stimulates herd instinct, and tends to produce ferocity toward those who are not regarded as members of the herd."

Bertrand Russell

soo, racism.

yes. RACISM. this needs to be discussed.

being COMPLETELY surrounded be white people all my life is no easy thing. let me tell you. PARTICULARY, when ya black.

today at work i was in probably one of the weirdest situation regarding race I've ever been in. while bending down behind the counter at work a white male, much older than i, walked up to the counter, grabbed a james brown c.d. and said with no hesitation:

"why do they have this "nigger's" c.d. in here."

. . . needless to say. i was angry. actually no, i was absolutely and incredibly FURIOUS.

never in my life, have i been face to face with someone (someone not black lol) who said something like that. (lol, welp i have buut they never had the balls to say this in front of my face)

sooo, when stood up from underneath the counter, i felt my blood boiling but i managed to keep my composure. "hi sir, may i help you?" managed to slip out of my mouth. to my surprise he went on and ordered his drink as if he had never said it.

. . . this made me even more furious. he has the NERVE to call another black person (james brown) a "nigger" in front of my face.

welp, after he ordered his drink. I proceeded to ask him if he needed anything else; unable to contain myself i put on teh nicest smile i could muster and said: "well sir is that all today? perhaps one of the "nigger" c.d's that you oh so appropriately pointed out when you walked in the door?"

. . . now, im not going to finish the story,nor am i going to sit here argue about the word "nigger" or anything of the sort. thats not the point of this blog.

as any mildly educated person can see this is clearly a racist comment. and really and truly i noticed that the MAIN issue with situations like this is, everyone says "oh thats messed up" and brushes it off.

there needs to be a discussion about it. (the point of the blog.) i believe there are 2 MAAAAIN sides to racism.

1. the people who put everything to race.
2. and the ones who act like it doesnt exist.

sooo, i dont wanna preach b/c lord knows im not exempt from some slightly racist comments. we've all said them. however, where is the point where the line is drawn? when do we discuss this, stand up, and say THIS IS A PROBLEM

when do we look at it and say "dang . . . aint this a BEE?"