askin for too much.

sooo yeaaaaa, this past weekend was valentines day weekend.

now as mentioned in previous blogs i liked this nigga ... 

there was that whole debate and all this OTHER bullshxt.

was he talkin to someone?

was he NOT talkin to someone??

did he like me ... did he not.

welp, i got to chill w/him.

right after the DevaSTatingly Naaasty Yardshow&&Party, (goodstuff)

i was with him AAALL valentines day morning.

fell asleep in his arms, WHOOOOLE NINE.

 ... only for him to tell me the next day

"i just want to be friends"

now i've heard this before ...

its the story of my damn life.

i'm the friend

will always be THEE friend

b/c im "cool" or im such a "nigga" that i can hang.

soooo once again i ask why the FXCK am i so damn INVISIBLE.

why am i still the friend.

in explaining it to my friend i was told

"well bianca you expect too much"

i guess in some respects i do.

so i'm sorry that i expect dudes to be honest.

let their actions speak louder then their words.

PERHAPS,if you just wanted to be friends maaaaybe you shouldn't have pursued  me as if you WANTED  a relationship.

PERHAPS, not tell me that you like me.

if you wanted to be friends, approach me like a friend.

&&certainly don't wait for me to ASK you want you to give me a damn answer.

sooo, ONCE again the situation has turned back around on ME,

become my fault.

ALL BECAUSE i ask for too much.

hmmp.

bee*